I am very far from perfect and embodied of imperfections. I know, I know, it’s extremely hard to believe! I am only human. I do make mistakes on a regular basis, and probably more often than I realize. I will say things, unintentionally, that may be offensive to others, without even realizing it. I may have done something, unknowingly, that may have hurt someone’s feelings. Admittedly, I know I’ve done someone wrong as opportunity presented itself, to where it haunts my conscience. Regardless, it’s my life’s story, which I hope may inspire others. Without poor choices and mistakes made, valuable life lessons would not have been learned. Hopefully, because of these learned lessons, I will instinctively know how to better handle and/or conduct myself in future situations, if and when they ever arise. Life is an ongoing adventure faced with undaunting obstacles. I have grown up having high expectations of myself. Now that I am somewhat grown up, I have learned to show myself more leniency and to be more self-forgiving. Or I can just do or think the obviously easy response to everything from now on and just say fuck it. 😊
Been hostage long enough.
Guilty as charged.
Exhausted from holding onto it.
Self-sentenced internal punishment served.
Time to forgive myself.
Time to love myself.
Time to let it go.
I accept my gift of self-forgiveness.
Thank you very much.
My eyes were open, but may as well have been squeezed closed tight. You appeared, and my eyes came into focus once again. The connection had always been there, but I had been blinded with distraction. Believe it or not, our paths have crossed in the past, but not to this extent. Naturally orchestrated, all was meant to be. Adoring pain, guilty as charged. Graciously, your affection, kindness, patience and understanding are admirably expressed. Although our paths may never cross again, I am eternally grateful, for my soul has been saved, and you don’t even realize it. With my complete sincerity, thank you.
“I’ve read that dreaming of your own death may be interpreted as facing the end of something – career, marriage, or other life-altering change. Also, symbolizing a new chapter in life.” – Excerpt from my post published July 31, 2015, Peaceful Serenity.
Try as I might, but it never fails. When someone’s attitude is more on the negative side, aimed towards other people in the household – yes, it affects me, and I will react accordingly. I know it’s not about me, but can’t help to react verbally defensively. The movie, “Multiplicity”, just came on TV. This movie came on at the perfect moment. I truly believe it was no a coincidence!! If you haven’t seen it yet, please put it on your “To Do” list. That person has calmed down now, but now I need to reach that lower level. Give me strength!! Thanks for letting me share my venting.
What do you all do when someone starts “attacking” emotionally out of the blue? When actually the main purpose or goal was to ask for help?
Isn’t a simple yes or no question supposed to be simple??? It’s never the case when I ask of a specific elderly adult, whom shall remain anonymous, and I’m not talking about my parents. It gets to the point of me feeling frustrated and irritated to where I want to scream!
That was me screaming. Thank you for your attention. Now I need to go find me some patience.